What happened to me?

It's really weird... i just posted something which seemed happy... But don't know why suddenly i feel like crying... feel like looking for someone to talk to... But i don't know how should i say it... i just feel like crying... suddenly i feel so helpless... like a baby... who can't do a damn thing...

Is it because of the future? Whenever i think of the results that are coming out in Jan next year i'll be so nervous... I really hope i get the results i want... and i need it... I MUST GET A GOOD RESULT... MUST! i'm so worried... not only because of the results... but also my future... coz what i want to study is so expensive... i've given up in medic coz my family really can't afford... and now pharmacy is also very expensive... and so i really hope to get into NUS with their tuition grant or scholarship... and if i really manage to enter NUS... then i shall work there after graduated from NUS...

BUT... what if i... my brother keeps on asking me not to do pharmacy if i were to do it in Malaysia... i can understand why he says so... and because of that... i'm even more tensed up... i MUST get into NUS... and to ensure that... i MUST get A VERY GOOD RESULTS! or else i don't know what to do... i want to do something related to Biology and/or Chemistry... and careers related to Biology and/or Chemistry are not that many... why do i say so? my bro told me that other than my interest... i have to consider how much i can earn in future... ya... honestly... i want to do something that i like and at the same time can earn lots of money... perhaps you will think that i'm materialistic... but this is reality... no money you can't survive in this world... but i'm not someone who do things just for money... or else i will be doing business course or something else that can earn more money...

Well... maybe i shouldn't think too much... maybe i should be a bit relaxed and enjoy life a bit while i still can... all i can do now is just to pray...

So... wish me LOTS OF LOTS OF LUCKS!!! wish me BEST OF LUCKS!!! wish me GET WHAT I WANT! wish me to GET GOOD RESULTS!!!

... it's quite late... so it's time to go... see ya...